Bored

So, I'm laughing at this musical we did in 6th grade ...

"Oh Fantine, I swear it on my life ...
It's too soon, too soon to say good-bye ..."

"Come to me ...
Cosette, the light is fading ...
Don't you see ...
The evening star appearing ...
Come to me ...
And rest ...
Against ...
My shoulder ...
How fast the minutes fly away and every minute colder ...

Hurry near ...
Another day is dying ...
Don't you hear ...
The winter wind ...
Is crying ..."

"On my own ...
Pretending he's beside me ...
On my own ..."

I actually kept this book, too. I just feel so bad because now my laptop's working and I just have too many problems. I should go do the sports store ore be upset my parents probably got rid of my last DVD player. Why not just get a new computer? I was gonna get this Blu-Ray like my dad said, but now he's getting me an Apple. I assume he's just waiting. My mom and brother went to Kennedy Space Center all day, which is in Florida where near I used to live. It's a nice one. She has this credit card we use for big things like this. I feel bad, but hey $4,000 I just spent it.

I saw my parents have the computer part set up on a separate table with a printer that's sturdy. I have my printer up on my drawers. My desk is perfect for a separate computer and moniter. It has a special part for the computer and is really sturdy. I guess that makes me a bit nervous, but for some reason I think that's better.

I mean, hey, it fits.

I just lost all self-esteem. I have gotten rid like of everything. Just I don't feel like going out tonight. It's only 6:30 P.M. What? I can paint a masterpiece now? I don't think so. I think I can draw eyes by looking at my face in the mirror rather than my prior plan of worrying about a printer.

I have a handbook on driving and a liscense. I just need some more relaxation. I wanna finish my TV series but hafta wait. Yea, I'm dressed, though my mom and brother have the cam. I will see if I can find the one for this laptop. I can finish reading more, as well. I'm making some progress.

So, in essence, like, I don't like asking my parents for money but am not sure what my problem is. Maybe, I should go for another walk in this outfit and not worry about not being dressed to work out per se. I can go out any time. It'll make me feel a lot better. My dad suggested my hair would get lighter. I think I just have to wait until I feel better. Hey, guess what, no more Hanes Her Way. I'm wearing practically a thong, a lace thong and a lace bra. I wear the same stuff each day. Saves me money. I guess I'm stopping now. I'm not necessarily starving for another daily shake out and don't have a microfridge for ice wanter. So, guess I'll get my bottled water from out.

It's just that I get restless lying in bed and have learned not to overeat yet again. About spending money, though, my dad suggests an Apple now. Probably not getting a laptop. Getting a separate computer and moniter and keyboard. I have the keyboard case, as well. I'm not really nervous about a desk with a place to mount the computer, like under where I can put the moniter or maybe even my printer. I just can't wait until I can watch TV again. I want to finish this. Really, I'm going for a walk soon, though. Guess one day I'll go to sports clothes. Why is this? I don't wear my glasses, neither. So, if this works is pretty good. I can live with reading all day. I just have to see how this goes, then. So, am I just on track to get thinner? Certainly, my legs are getting stronger. I have lots of funny things I could talk about. I wanna go out again though now. I assume my dad did fix something here. I have to think about getting the TV back in if I wanna play for instance the animal games, though it doesn't quite match the zoo ones. So, like, I could play them when no one's around or put the TV in my room. I still have to clean up a little. I'm not sure what I'll find tonight. Well, I guess I'll go take a walk then and see what comes up for me.