Was Looking Forward to a Good Time

However, this new desk is shaking really badly, so I took the laptop off. Now, I'm upset because I don't know if I can do art on a computer table, and I ended up saving my little TV for the Wii.

Worse though my brother was just done and I was going to eat. I had a snack and then was heating up for cooking stuff. Then I realized I wanted to go out and had to move over my stuff in case we got a sofa today. I ended up throwing everything on my bed. Then, I had to move it a little again. When I got back around 15 minutes later, I found the pan off-center near the eating (dog just barked, which never happens,) part on this holding thing made of metal that must usually be on the microwave I think they got for Christmas or something. I just found that freaky because he was in his bedroom. I realize when I was moving the first thing he was cutting his nails, but so what? Did he go to the bathroom again or even take a quicker shower this time? I don't think so. Anyway, we aren't particularly close. I was sweating bullets and felt like a manatee. I'm all shaking and haven't been quite as upset. Clearly, people realize I've given up to throw things out of windows. I can't even focus. I cleared a spot off for nothing. My realitionship is as hard as it is, and I was looking forward to a good time out with my dad, who isn't home yet maybe, I dunno. The whole wall is clear, but it turns out I need to figure something else out for a desk.

So, what bothers me is this: why did all of a sudden my brother come out and do that? Sure, he heard me move the other stand outside - it hit my door. It's next to my bedroom door now. Could he seriously have come out maybe to use the living room? Then, he saw the stove top and turned it off like that since the rest was full? I didn't think of that until just now. He did let the oven heat since it was on lower.

Well, maybe I can still go out except I'm still as stimulated as a raw fish. Maybe, it's that I haven't showered or something like that and had a day stuck in my room for some reason. I could just go to sleep now. Unfortunately it's Wednesday and seems like a nice day. Oh, and my stomach felt like it had a hole cut out like it's all cut out. I'm serious, though, we can't waste time returning this computer stand. It was to be fast, hence like I wish it were today. I don't know what happened. It seriously wiggles more than a carnival ride. It wiggles more than Jello.

I really should ask to go, though. I can see sleeping through maybe, so maybe I'll wait here and think about it. I have clothes ready, though. So, this would be for me to find a desk that doesn't wiggle. My dad might show me stores he knows. I might just have to use one we already saw.

This is the smallest size laptop, too, so why would it wiggle and still get sold like that? I'm sure I can easily figure something out. I just want to have another browse of the desks to see if I could do art on it with a computer on another platform, which I think is true. I just realized where we got this and see we should just go back to a same place and wherever my dad knows. I think I want to wait because of how I feel, though I feel guilty. It's just that anyway the net is working faster and my parents paid for it. Supposedly it's faster, now. Wow, my dad might not even be home now. I just want to have a good time. We did, but I mean like aesthetically. Wow, and my printer could even go on a desk soon. This also means TV night for sure. If not, I don't know what I'd do. So, I didn't shower because I was afraid of the noise. I'm afraid to go out because I didn't shower and am not strong. I just feel grumpy and antisocial. I don't really want to sleep plus have nothing to do. Oh well, I have a feeling my dad will be home a while later and I'll either be half-asleep or waiting to go or something. Well, we'll see, I guess. I sure don't feel well. I don't know if that means I need to hurry or if I can wait or something. I feel just natural but it seems things aren't right.

So, I have some rearranging decisions to make still maybe unless I do find something that fits, keep forgetting it, which reminds me in that post that was deleted I said something about I forget though I don't know why I said that there. It's just how I talk sometimes, and people stop and I guess wonder why I do that. It's just talking when I have nothing to talk about, not a good thing. The other good thing is if I put a desk up against this other wall in this room of mine - my room - then I could easily get any size and squeeze these little shelves in some corner or something, though there are only two left. I can get the large sofa and a large desk. I certainly want to keep my books, but my dad said I could put it out in the garage. I dunno, maybe I should wait. I just wanna watch TV, too. I have stuff to get rid of and can put my stuff out, which might make me sensitive. I just have to really think about quality. My dad even said there's a cable already in the garage, not sure if it was their choice. I said I could put my stuff there, not having it for a room. I asked about others using it, and he said like it's shared I guess. Okay. I do like having my stuff here. My idea was that a computer desk would have a full media shelf but maybe not a bookcase, like our old one was that I think my dad and brother made. I think I used it second, though I'm not sure about it much. It seems I just want to go shopping. Maybe, when I feel better I can ask my brother if he wants to take a walk but then I'd have to ask to stop at GAP.

I somehow feel I've had my fun but am not sure if my dad wishes I'd do it sooner. I'm just too tired today. I did mention going out today, but I'm not sure now. I don't like this. I do feel too sick. I honestly thought I'd be awake during the night. I honestly think I should stay here and then ask tomorrow. I haven't gone on a new e-mail and it's no fun. Plus, yea, why inform him of what he already knows. I was wondering because I asked. It's not right, but I'm anti-social health-wise. So, maybe it is. This desk really is good. I can't find another thing that doesn't shake, though.I think I'll have to move my things to the garage by taking them off the shelves and shoving around from ridding of everything, which is in the middle. Of course, I bring in stuff little by little as I use them. They can see what I own and use it, probably a nice thing for them. I may ask my brother to go to GAP today, treat him to ice cream, though yea he paid last night. We'll probably take a walk. I did for ballet. I know he needs it. I posted about this before, walking. I was talking about a post blog-wise, editing around in a previous post, too. So, well, walking is what is necessary or right for ballet because it's a muscle building workout and not like a speed thing, not a time distance thing. The other thing though is I have an outfit to mend that I would sometime maybe in the morning after watching TV. I'd still be tired, maybe go out this weekend. They'd understand in a way. I just feel injured, in fact, which isn't as understandable. Something keeps seeming to happen. I hope I end up changing my mind. Things just aren't the same anymore, and I don't know why. I don't feel like staying in my room and will probably end up going out though not sure. Likely not since I might have to wait for my dad to eat. Well, I'm over and out for now.