Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Okay I'm off now
My shoulder is getting sensitive from actually posting again. I am going to try a hand at pencil sketching and doing shading to build my collection. I might get hot and greasy and want to come back online. I doubt I'm going out tonight. I wanna get in bed. Of course, I have water. However, I wanna do some art more. That way also if I get back into music once better will have something to compare to for my interests.
I do have a way of dealing with things
I just kinda look down upon them. I realize I need stuff that costs money. Eventually, I can get over it. When I work, things will be better. Funny though I didn't tell them what I fed the dog, so I don't know how that coincidence occurred. Suddenly, we haven't had anything like ham nor meatloaf and no bakery things. My dad has diabetes, as well since. I was disgusted, though, so I stopped after giving him some of the food. I'm weaving in and out of my thoughts, I guess. It just really bugged me. Like, what, was I not prepared for it or something. Since, we haven't been worrying about the dog, neither, like before. At least seemingly. At least once we got the chocolate covered cream filled stuff.
I sorta regret having to go out, but I do. Tonight will be TV night, and then I will sleep all day in a shower. Haha. Then, I will have a note to go out and look for a sturdy desk. Supposedly, I will have moved my shelves to the garage and oh I forget again. I do have the little TV for video games. That's all, a bed and that stuff. I can do art on a sturdy computer desk. I know it can't wiggle. I'll keep this laptop until my dad sets up that stuff. I have to clear out the chords, as well, so who knows, I'll write for tomorrow - Sunday to be the day. I'll ask my dad to put it together for me then. Next, I'll get my 3-seat sofa. Then, I'll be prepared to decide on a computer. Oh, yea, a new chair should come with it. I have all this stuff bunched in the middle. The chords though are just of the laptop like and the TV and stuff, the fans. So, it all can easily be dealt with like tonight or tomorrow. I need to take it easy most importantly. This really is important to me because then I will be more active online and will read during the day instead of just sit here and mope like this. I can sleep when I need to because I will sleep on a couch. Great, my room has sliding doors for a closet. Then a bed and there is the desk and there is a sofa, a big sturdy desk and a nicely priced good-looking style of sofa from a good furniture store. I bet I can even tilt the screen to face me. Like, I mean on the sofa. Funny the ones I saw, not many, all had bars just that cover the sies, so I need probably like a bigger desk or just find a different one I guess. So, meanwhile I really am in here upset I didn't spend the night watching TV and am hungry. I'm not now. It really is bad. I could paint, might lie down first. Like, I didn't have a shower but am happy staying at home now and should remain so untli I feel better I guess. I just want to get better as soon as possible. I feel happy about looking just for a desk for now that's sturdy, though, and then a legitimate couch. As per sound system, I just mean this boombox has a chord that isn't really attached to it and comes undone. I have nowhere to put it. It's not a big priority yet. It's just that the computer wasn't made for it. I want a full sound system, just one that's not portable. It's because I know they are probably louder. I just never got into asking for one yet, scouting out options on what to spend on. I am excited maybe to do another Alice drawing. Maybe sometime I can copy a real person as is what usually to do, though no I don't have any magazines. I also of course have my hair to dye. I want to do a drawing because I can shade and I'm sick. I can shade in paint, but I think I'm new at that, unfortunately and want to practice my skill. Well, over and out.
I sorta regret having to go out, but I do. Tonight will be TV night, and then I will sleep all day in a shower. Haha. Then, I will have a note to go out and look for a sturdy desk. Supposedly, I will have moved my shelves to the garage and oh I forget again. I do have the little TV for video games. That's all, a bed and that stuff. I can do art on a sturdy computer desk. I know it can't wiggle. I'll keep this laptop until my dad sets up that stuff. I have to clear out the chords, as well, so who knows, I'll write for tomorrow - Sunday to be the day. I'll ask my dad to put it together for me then. Next, I'll get my 3-seat sofa. Then, I'll be prepared to decide on a computer. Oh, yea, a new chair should come with it. I have all this stuff bunched in the middle. The chords though are just of the laptop like and the TV and stuff, the fans. So, it all can easily be dealt with like tonight or tomorrow. I need to take it easy most importantly. This really is important to me because then I will be more active online and will read during the day instead of just sit here and mope like this. I can sleep when I need to because I will sleep on a couch. Great, my room has sliding doors for a closet. Then a bed and there is the desk and there is a sofa, a big sturdy desk and a nicely priced good-looking style of sofa from a good furniture store. I bet I can even tilt the screen to face me. Like, I mean on the sofa. Funny the ones I saw, not many, all had bars just that cover the sies, so I need probably like a bigger desk or just find a different one I guess. So, meanwhile I really am in here upset I didn't spend the night watching TV and am hungry. I'm not now. It really is bad. I could paint, might lie down first. Like, I didn't have a shower but am happy staying at home now and should remain so untli I feel better I guess. I just want to get better as soon as possible. I feel happy about looking just for a desk for now that's sturdy, though, and then a legitimate couch. As per sound system, I just mean this boombox has a chord that isn't really attached to it and comes undone. I have nowhere to put it. It's not a big priority yet. It's just that the computer wasn't made for it. I want a full sound system, just one that's not portable. It's because I know they are probably louder. I just never got into asking for one yet, scouting out options on what to spend on. I am excited maybe to do another Alice drawing. Maybe sometime I can copy a real person as is what usually to do, though no I don't have any magazines. I also of course have my hair to dye. I want to do a drawing because I can shade and I'm sick. I can shade in paint, but I think I'm new at that, unfortunately and want to practice my skill. Well, over and out.
Ricochet
Okay, so, like, why did my dad ask me yesterday or rather he said about feeding the dog or something and that he eats once a day when clearly he eats twice a day. I said I never feed him. I know once I fed him when they stopped buying something and found it funny he said once about something after with more emphasis. I just wanted to go shopping man. I came out again to ask him why he asked me something about that or whatever it was. Then, he went in to change and I remember I always knocked sometimes on my own room until college and after and thought it was cute, like lightly I knock if I know no one is there. No one was there, and he hit his knuckles on his door, which was closed. I didn't say anything but was waiting out in the living room, wantint to ask but didn't, feeling silly.
No, the webpage isn't loading. I became really sluggish trying to double click something. I honestly don't know anyone who can't stop holding onto things that bother me from something that happened as though it's my fault.
It just came to my mind when I got over what my brother did. They're doing it to annoy me. I don't feel well at all. I have no job. I have no future. I am virtually nothing. I am at home all day feeling this. Something new always has to come up.
It seems as though I can't tell when my dad is home. It seems almost time for my brother to go.
I mean if something already bothered me, why hurt me again, and again to prove a point when I clearly just mentioned something? It's like they're out to stimulate me, and no one really cares. No one has left me alone.
I seriously need to leave a note to go out tomorrow to look for a computer desk and then a sofa. I need to decide to move my shelves as well.
Funny, I just clicked differently and now my internet's not working. I didn't get in a good double click. Only my start page is up.
I started again. Strangely, I got something up new but not something else.
So, I was wondering, maybe people seem nice, but in truth they really hurt me and and through.
No, the webpage isn't loading. I became really sluggish trying to double click something. I honestly don't know anyone who can't stop holding onto things that bother me from something that happened as though it's my fault.
It just came to my mind when I got over what my brother did. They're doing it to annoy me. I don't feel well at all. I have no job. I have no future. I am virtually nothing. I am at home all day feeling this. Something new always has to come up.
It seems as though I can't tell when my dad is home. It seems almost time for my brother to go.
I mean if something already bothered me, why hurt me again, and again to prove a point when I clearly just mentioned something? It's like they're out to stimulate me, and no one really cares. No one has left me alone.
I seriously need to leave a note to go out tomorrow to look for a computer desk and then a sofa. I need to decide to move my shelves as well.
Funny, I just clicked differently and now my internet's not working. I didn't get in a good double click. Only my start page is up.
I started again. Strangely, I got something up new but not something else.
So, I was wondering, maybe people seem nice, but in truth they really hurt me and and through.
Was Looking Forward to a Good Time
However, this new desk is shaking really badly, so I took the laptop off. Now, I'm upset because I don't know if I can do art on a computer table, and I ended up saving my little TV for the Wii.
Worse though my brother was just done and I was going to eat. I had a snack and then was heating up for cooking stuff. Then I realized I wanted to go out and had to move over my stuff in case we got a sofa today. I ended up throwing everything on my bed. Then, I had to move it a little again. When I got back around 15 minutes later, I found the pan off-center near the eating (dog just barked, which never happens,) part on this holding thing made of metal that must usually be on the microwave I think they got for Christmas or something. I just found that freaky because he was in his bedroom. I realize when I was moving the first thing he was cutting his nails, but so what? Did he go to the bathroom again or even take a quicker shower this time? I don't think so. Anyway, we aren't particularly close. I was sweating bullets and felt like a manatee. I'm all shaking and haven't been quite as upset. Clearly, people realize I've given up to throw things out of windows. I can't even focus. I cleared a spot off for nothing. My realitionship is as hard as it is, and I was looking forward to a good time out with my dad, who isn't home yet maybe, I dunno. The whole wall is clear, but it turns out I need to figure something else out for a desk.
So, what bothers me is this: why did all of a sudden my brother come out and do that? Sure, he heard me move the other stand outside - it hit my door. It's next to my bedroom door now. Could he seriously have come out maybe to use the living room? Then, he saw the stove top and turned it off like that since the rest was full? I didn't think of that until just now. He did let the oven heat since it was on lower.
Well, maybe I can still go out except I'm still as stimulated as a raw fish. Maybe, it's that I haven't showered or something like that and had a day stuck in my room for some reason. I could just go to sleep now. Unfortunately it's Wednesday and seems like a nice day. Oh, and my stomach felt like it had a hole cut out like it's all cut out. I'm serious, though, we can't waste time returning this computer stand. It was to be fast, hence like I wish it were today. I don't know what happened. It seriously wiggles more than a carnival ride. It wiggles more than Jello.
I really should ask to go, though. I can see sleeping through maybe, so maybe I'll wait here and think about it. I have clothes ready, though. So, this would be for me to find a desk that doesn't wiggle. My dad might show me stores he knows. I might just have to use one we already saw.
This is the smallest size laptop, too, so why would it wiggle and still get sold like that? I'm sure I can easily figure something out. I just want to have another browse of the desks to see if I could do art on it with a computer on another platform, which I think is true. I just realized where we got this and see we should just go back to a same place and wherever my dad knows. I think I want to wait because of how I feel, though I feel guilty. It's just that anyway the net is working faster and my parents paid for it. Supposedly it's faster, now. Wow, my dad might not even be home now. I just want to have a good time. We did, but I mean like aesthetically. Wow, and my printer could even go on a desk soon. This also means TV night for sure. If not, I don't know what I'd do. So, I didn't shower because I was afraid of the noise. I'm afraid to go out because I didn't shower and am not strong. I just feel grumpy and antisocial. I don't really want to sleep plus have nothing to do. Oh well, I have a feeling my dad will be home a while later and I'll either be half-asleep or waiting to go or something. Well, we'll see, I guess. I sure don't feel well. I don't know if that means I need to hurry or if I can wait or something. I feel just natural but it seems things aren't right.
So, I have some rearranging decisions to make still maybe unless I do find something that fits, keep forgetting it, which reminds me in that post that was deleted I said something about I forget though I don't know why I said that there. It's just how I talk sometimes, and people stop and I guess wonder why I do that. It's just talking when I have nothing to talk about, not a good thing. The other good thing is if I put a desk up against this other wall in this room of mine - my room - then I could easily get any size and squeeze these little shelves in some corner or something, though there are only two left. I can get the large sofa and a large desk. I certainly want to keep my books, but my dad said I could put it out in the garage. I dunno, maybe I should wait. I just wanna watch TV, too. I have stuff to get rid of and can put my stuff out, which might make me sensitive. I just have to really think about quality. My dad even said there's a cable already in the garage, not sure if it was their choice. I said I could put my stuff there, not having it for a room. I asked about others using it, and he said like it's shared I guess. Okay. I do like having my stuff here. My idea was that a computer desk would have a full media shelf but maybe not a bookcase, like our old one was that I think my dad and brother made. I think I used it second, though I'm not sure about it much. It seems I just want to go shopping. Maybe, when I feel better I can ask my brother if he wants to take a walk but then I'd have to ask to stop at GAP.
I somehow feel I've had my fun but am not sure if my dad wishes I'd do it sooner. I'm just too tired today. I did mention going out today, but I'm not sure now. I don't like this. I do feel too sick. I honestly thought I'd be awake during the night. I honestly think I should stay here and then ask tomorrow. I haven't gone on a new e-mail and it's no fun. Plus, yea, why inform him of what he already knows. I was wondering because I asked. It's not right, but I'm anti-social health-wise. So, maybe it is. This desk really is good. I can't find another thing that doesn't shake, though.I think I'll have to move my things to the garage by taking them off the shelves and shoving around from ridding of everything, which is in the middle. Of course, I bring in stuff little by little as I use them. They can see what I own and use it, probably a nice thing for them. I may ask my brother to go to GAP today, treat him to ice cream, though yea he paid last night. We'll probably take a walk. I did for ballet. I know he needs it. I posted about this before, walking. I was talking about a post blog-wise, editing around in a previous post, too. So, well, walking is what is necessary or right for ballet because it's a muscle building workout and not like a speed thing, not a time distance thing. The other thing though is I have an outfit to mend that I would sometime maybe in the morning after watching TV. I'd still be tired, maybe go out this weekend. They'd understand in a way. I just feel injured, in fact, which isn't as understandable. Something keeps seeming to happen. I hope I end up changing my mind. Things just aren't the same anymore, and I don't know why. I don't feel like staying in my room and will probably end up going out though not sure. Likely not since I might have to wait for my dad to eat. Well, I'm over and out for now.
Worse though my brother was just done and I was going to eat. I had a snack and then was heating up for cooking stuff. Then I realized I wanted to go out and had to move over my stuff in case we got a sofa today. I ended up throwing everything on my bed. Then, I had to move it a little again. When I got back around 15 minutes later, I found the pan off-center near the eating (dog just barked, which never happens,) part on this holding thing made of metal that must usually be on the microwave I think they got for Christmas or something. I just found that freaky because he was in his bedroom. I realize when I was moving the first thing he was cutting his nails, but so what? Did he go to the bathroom again or even take a quicker shower this time? I don't think so. Anyway, we aren't particularly close. I was sweating bullets and felt like a manatee. I'm all shaking and haven't been quite as upset. Clearly, people realize I've given up to throw things out of windows. I can't even focus. I cleared a spot off for nothing. My realitionship is as hard as it is, and I was looking forward to a good time out with my dad, who isn't home yet maybe, I dunno. The whole wall is clear, but it turns out I need to figure something else out for a desk.
So, what bothers me is this: why did all of a sudden my brother come out and do that? Sure, he heard me move the other stand outside - it hit my door. It's next to my bedroom door now. Could he seriously have come out maybe to use the living room? Then, he saw the stove top and turned it off like that since the rest was full? I didn't think of that until just now. He did let the oven heat since it was on lower.
Well, maybe I can still go out except I'm still as stimulated as a raw fish. Maybe, it's that I haven't showered or something like that and had a day stuck in my room for some reason. I could just go to sleep now. Unfortunately it's Wednesday and seems like a nice day. Oh, and my stomach felt like it had a hole cut out like it's all cut out. I'm serious, though, we can't waste time returning this computer stand. It was to be fast, hence like I wish it were today. I don't know what happened. It seriously wiggles more than a carnival ride. It wiggles more than Jello.
I really should ask to go, though. I can see sleeping through maybe, so maybe I'll wait here and think about it. I have clothes ready, though. So, this would be for me to find a desk that doesn't wiggle. My dad might show me stores he knows. I might just have to use one we already saw.
This is the smallest size laptop, too, so why would it wiggle and still get sold like that? I'm sure I can easily figure something out. I just want to have another browse of the desks to see if I could do art on it with a computer on another platform, which I think is true. I just realized where we got this and see we should just go back to a same place and wherever my dad knows. I think I want to wait because of how I feel, though I feel guilty. It's just that anyway the net is working faster and my parents paid for it. Supposedly it's faster, now. Wow, my dad might not even be home now. I just want to have a good time. We did, but I mean like aesthetically. Wow, and my printer could even go on a desk soon. This also means TV night for sure. If not, I don't know what I'd do. So, I didn't shower because I was afraid of the noise. I'm afraid to go out because I didn't shower and am not strong. I just feel grumpy and antisocial. I don't really want to sleep plus have nothing to do. Oh well, I have a feeling my dad will be home a while later and I'll either be half-asleep or waiting to go or something. Well, we'll see, I guess. I sure don't feel well. I don't know if that means I need to hurry or if I can wait or something. I feel just natural but it seems things aren't right.
So, I have some rearranging decisions to make still maybe unless I do find something that fits, keep forgetting it, which reminds me in that post that was deleted I said something about I forget though I don't know why I said that there. It's just how I talk sometimes, and people stop and I guess wonder why I do that. It's just talking when I have nothing to talk about, not a good thing. The other good thing is if I put a desk up against this other wall in this room of mine - my room - then I could easily get any size and squeeze these little shelves in some corner or something, though there are only two left. I can get the large sofa and a large desk. I certainly want to keep my books, but my dad said I could put it out in the garage. I dunno, maybe I should wait. I just wanna watch TV, too. I have stuff to get rid of and can put my stuff out, which might make me sensitive. I just have to really think about quality. My dad even said there's a cable already in the garage, not sure if it was their choice. I said I could put my stuff there, not having it for a room. I asked about others using it, and he said like it's shared I guess. Okay. I do like having my stuff here. My idea was that a computer desk would have a full media shelf but maybe not a bookcase, like our old one was that I think my dad and brother made. I think I used it second, though I'm not sure about it much. It seems I just want to go shopping. Maybe, when I feel better I can ask my brother if he wants to take a walk but then I'd have to ask to stop at GAP.
I somehow feel I've had my fun but am not sure if my dad wishes I'd do it sooner. I'm just too tired today. I did mention going out today, but I'm not sure now. I don't like this. I do feel too sick. I honestly thought I'd be awake during the night. I honestly think I should stay here and then ask tomorrow. I haven't gone on a new e-mail and it's no fun. Plus, yea, why inform him of what he already knows. I was wondering because I asked. It's not right, but I'm anti-social health-wise. So, maybe it is. This desk really is good. I can't find another thing that doesn't shake, though.I think I'll have to move my things to the garage by taking them off the shelves and shoving around from ridding of everything, which is in the middle. Of course, I bring in stuff little by little as I use them. They can see what I own and use it, probably a nice thing for them. I may ask my brother to go to GAP today, treat him to ice cream, though yea he paid last night. We'll probably take a walk. I did for ballet. I know he needs it. I posted about this before, walking. I was talking about a post blog-wise, editing around in a previous post, too. So, well, walking is what is necessary or right for ballet because it's a muscle building workout and not like a speed thing, not a time distance thing. The other thing though is I have an outfit to mend that I would sometime maybe in the morning after watching TV. I'd still be tired, maybe go out this weekend. They'd understand in a way. I just feel injured, in fact, which isn't as understandable. Something keeps seeming to happen. I hope I end up changing my mind. Things just aren't the same anymore, and I don't know why. I don't feel like staying in my room and will probably end up going out though not sure. Likely not since I might have to wait for my dad to eat. Well, I'm over and out for now.
Wow that was simple
So now everything is all set. I just had to move my printer on top of my drawers. I'll move in the table when the house is quiet. Now maybe I'll eat and bathe. Maybe I'll do a painting or something. I might not go out with my dad, though. I'm not sure what I'll do for a few hours. I probably won't even get a new chair I see, as well. My next goal is probably clothes from the mall. I can get something from GAP to wear I guess for when I go shopping.
Okay so ...
Tonight, I'm refiguring how to.
Well trying now.
Maybe then can eat or something, shower, too, ready for going out maybe tonight even with my dad and maybe again with my brother.
(My last post deleted and it explained that my dad set up my desk already.)
Well trying now.
Maybe then can eat or something, shower, too, ready for going out maybe tonight even with my dad and maybe again with my brother.
(My last post deleted and it explained that my dad set up my desk already.)
Plans Set
I need to set up this small computer stand first and then put the printer up just to see it set. My shelves fit in this nicely on the other side.
Then, I can go buy a couch. Don't need new vanity storage at this point. The problem was it fitting, but now the printer takes precedence and anyway I do like the old storage luckily as drawers as opposed to shelves, though it would be better maybe if I make it so the only time I open the sliding closet doors is when I get clothes for going out, which though is presently on one side. I know it'll work out and am not concerned about vanity in that way. I can put a jewelry box on thte top with my art supplies. It does however need to be cleared.
So, not looking forward, hopefully can go out tonight. Have to put in laundry because I have nothing else to wear from strangely, oh nevermind maybe I do, so just need to put that thing together when I get the tools. I want to watch TV tonight because like I wanted to see if there were any other good episodes. I'm trying to get by saying I studied something since I'm sick anyway. I need it for my health.
So just need to put that together and will rearrange everything, which will all fit.
Then, we can shop for a 3-seat couch, I guess tomorrow. After that means we get the computer by this weekend. Then, things are set. I get a little better, see a deramtolgist for my one problem, blackheads, after I'm feeling better, then see a psychologist and then a psychiatrist. Then I see I doctor and dentist and a Chinese doctor. Then, I interview to be a cook on my dad's way to work and maybe even until after, though I doubt that in some ways.
Then, I can go buy a couch. Don't need new vanity storage at this point. The problem was it fitting, but now the printer takes precedence and anyway I do like the old storage luckily as drawers as opposed to shelves, though it would be better maybe if I make it so the only time I open the sliding closet doors is when I get clothes for going out, which though is presently on one side. I know it'll work out and am not concerned about vanity in that way. I can put a jewelry box on thte top with my art supplies. It does however need to be cleared.
So, not looking forward, hopefully can go out tonight. Have to put in laundry because I have nothing else to wear from strangely, oh nevermind maybe I do, so just need to put that thing together when I get the tools. I want to watch TV tonight because like I wanted to see if there were any other good episodes. I'm trying to get by saying I studied something since I'm sick anyway. I need it for my health.
So just need to put that together and will rearrange everything, which will all fit.
Then, we can shop for a 3-seat couch, I guess tomorrow. After that means we get the computer by this weekend. Then, things are set. I get a little better, see a deramtolgist for my one problem, blackheads, after I'm feeling better, then see a psychologist and then a psychiatrist. Then I see I doctor and dentist and a Chinese doctor. Then, I interview to be a cook on my dad's way to work and maybe even until after, though I doubt that in some ways.
Stress 4 the day
I may need to utilize a larger multi-function desk for art. The thing is some art supplies need their own temporary shelf. Funny this desk has 5. I could tecnically keep this. The main difference is that I wanted to put the computer under a little table for the printer so I can stretch my legs under the little computer table.
Stress-free, maybe even save for later, then, would be simply the stacking shelves.
I don't even want to do the couch yet. This laptop works now, but it gets too slow. I'm only slightly wary about using a screen where I don't look so much at both the screen and my typing so much. Too bad this is so slow, but that's money for you.
I don't know why I keep sleeping at night. That leaves me on here with time to kill. I don't have TV yet. I'm hungry, haven't eaten at home. I have things I could do. I'm tired. I could read, but what I'm reading is a bit harder than that, otherwise what it would be. I can go check every so often to see if I can use the living room for food, which is easy enough to do.
The good thing about my hair dye is it kind of is gone now. I don't think I care because it doesn't matter to me what color my hair looks like.
I want to be a cook. I know I won't lose a finger. I have enough experience. I have experience in fine dining, not to say real fine dining but not McD's. I am used to working with spices and things like that. I bake my buns each time, and they're wheat buns. I know about saving time and flipping it so the spice doesn't fall off. I know when not to put spice on one side. I know how to do oil. I have some experience baking creatively a little. I like vegetarian food but for things like tomatos. I believe in eating a lot, when you want.
I plan to go out tonight with my brother. With my dad first I'll ask to get the folding art desk. I have to think of a way. I think I can easily store my art things. It can go in my closet. I just need not really but would be nice a table where I could lay out things. Like I said, I could keep this one. The thing must be the table where a computer would fit under. A mini art table would be ideal. I really don't think I'd paint yet with an easel. (Hey, I might even get the house again today. I'm done with IMDb for now. It loaded rather slowly, but at least it loads.)
I'm excited, may dye my hair tonight. I don't feel like sleeping as much. I hope I end up eating soon. I wanted to do another painting but am too tired to do it.
Wow, I have even large canvases. I just need another desk not too large where I can use it to store the printer, also. It should all work out really. I'm not sure where we'll go, but I can check out online. On second thought, maybe I will do another painting now. I just don't know about the final set-up and need a plan. Hmm, this even all works out. I may just have to go out for fun tonight and think about rearranging. I do need to relax more maybe before dying my hair, though as soon as possible for this all. Maybe, first I want to set up the computer desk I guess. I'm not entirely sure about the printer. I go out to get something to eat really. Tonight I should get Subway. I see I need a new sound system, as well. So, this is about setting up that computer stand today. It looks rather complicated, and I hope my dad gets the tools. One thing I know is I don't want the printer on the floor under a desk again. It doesn't even fit on one of the shelves. I kinda think it will go on my drawers, actually. Okay, so it's all set now, just waiting for the tools and the time in the house alone. I indeed will get to it, though, even though I desperately want to finish the TV series' and also a week to cancel old credit card subscriptions from old e-mails. I'm not sure if I might get to that now even. Otherwise, nothing really I can do at the moment. The stacking shelves can wait. I hardly have any clothes. I have shelves on the side of the closet, as well. It is tedious to open the closet. The other thing I found is I need to move the shelves, just realized this, by the closet.
I really don't feel well ever, neither. Something happens, and then nothing's the same. It's not even my fault. Now what? People think they can get away with anything with me. I mean, I'm not even doing anything and I just feel terrible. It's not fair. Sure, no one cares and no one notices. People know what like I don't like and what's not right, and now they don't care. They make up stupid jokes and things, too. Nothing's going okay. I did just wake up and then come back in here. It's strange. What do these people do all day? Thanks, for wasting my life. At least I'm still getting things done. What right does someone have to always act badly just because something upset the other person? There is none. Why are people not letting go of things? This doesn't make any sense. I don't feel like being in bed, but I think I will go back to bed. I haven't showered, neither. I'm tired of being ruined.
Stress-free, maybe even save for later, then, would be simply the stacking shelves.
I don't even want to do the couch yet. This laptop works now, but it gets too slow. I'm only slightly wary about using a screen where I don't look so much at both the screen and my typing so much. Too bad this is so slow, but that's money for you.
I don't know why I keep sleeping at night. That leaves me on here with time to kill. I don't have TV yet. I'm hungry, haven't eaten at home. I have things I could do. I'm tired. I could read, but what I'm reading is a bit harder than that, otherwise what it would be. I can go check every so often to see if I can use the living room for food, which is easy enough to do.
The good thing about my hair dye is it kind of is gone now. I don't think I care because it doesn't matter to me what color my hair looks like.
I want to be a cook. I know I won't lose a finger. I have enough experience. I have experience in fine dining, not to say real fine dining but not McD's. I am used to working with spices and things like that. I bake my buns each time, and they're wheat buns. I know about saving time and flipping it so the spice doesn't fall off. I know when not to put spice on one side. I know how to do oil. I have some experience baking creatively a little. I like vegetarian food but for things like tomatos. I believe in eating a lot, when you want.
I plan to go out tonight with my brother. With my dad first I'll ask to get the folding art desk. I have to think of a way. I think I can easily store my art things. It can go in my closet. I just need not really but would be nice a table where I could lay out things. Like I said, I could keep this one. The thing must be the table where a computer would fit under. A mini art table would be ideal. I really don't think I'd paint yet with an easel. (Hey, I might even get the house again today. I'm done with IMDb for now. It loaded rather slowly, but at least it loads.)
I'm excited, may dye my hair tonight. I don't feel like sleeping as much. I hope I end up eating soon. I wanted to do another painting but am too tired to do it.
Wow, I have even large canvases. I just need another desk not too large where I can use it to store the printer, also. It should all work out really. I'm not sure where we'll go, but I can check out online. On second thought, maybe I will do another painting now. I just don't know about the final set-up and need a plan. Hmm, this even all works out. I may just have to go out for fun tonight and think about rearranging. I do need to relax more maybe before dying my hair, though as soon as possible for this all. Maybe, first I want to set up the computer desk I guess. I'm not entirely sure about the printer. I go out to get something to eat really. Tonight I should get Subway. I see I need a new sound system, as well. So, this is about setting up that computer stand today. It looks rather complicated, and I hope my dad gets the tools. One thing I know is I don't want the printer on the floor under a desk again. It doesn't even fit on one of the shelves. I kinda think it will go on my drawers, actually. Okay, so it's all set now, just waiting for the tools and the time in the house alone. I indeed will get to it, though, even though I desperately want to finish the TV series' and also a week to cancel old credit card subscriptions from old e-mails. I'm not sure if I might get to that now even. Otherwise, nothing really I can do at the moment. The stacking shelves can wait. I hardly have any clothes. I have shelves on the side of the closet, as well. It is tedious to open the closet. The other thing I found is I need to move the shelves, just realized this, by the closet.
I really don't feel well ever, neither. Something happens, and then nothing's the same. It's not even my fault. Now what? People think they can get away with anything with me. I mean, I'm not even doing anything and I just feel terrible. It's not fair. Sure, no one cares and no one notices. People know what like I don't like and what's not right, and now they don't care. They make up stupid jokes and things, too. Nothing's going okay. I did just wake up and then come back in here. It's strange. What do these people do all day? Thanks, for wasting my life. At least I'm still getting things done. What right does someone have to always act badly just because something upset the other person? There is none. Why are people not letting go of things? This doesn't make any sense. I don't feel like being in bed, but I think I will go back to bed. I haven't showered, neither. I'm tired of being ruined.