Last Name First

Something that bothers me personally must be my last name. Does it not make sense that my dad's mom's maiden name starts with "Bar" and that Barber sounds like "Barbaric" as opposed to simply a last name, a first name, or even a Barber personality? I do have Mortimer in my family name, Barber-Work to Work-Mortimer. I'm as happy as a cat and as fit as a fiddle.
On a side note, I think I should plan to get a real computer and use it like this. This small one certainly is as I should have suspected more sturdy.

Why are people always uncomfortable with me then? It's something I can't help for some reason. It's the same issue I've been on. Also, the reason I never posted much about my mom's family...

My computer is so slow.

...names is because I don't want to give the wrong impression. First, they do have new names from moving to a different country. Next, I don't know how long it was. Most importantly, the last names from the real ethnicity seems to have changed between each family member, like the offspring share nothing, though I saw repeats and what looked like intermarriage between families.

My last post is taking so long to load, too. Oh well, no one will care, though, but since I'm not functioning I like to give my status away.

The reason this is (okay it loaded) (ah taking a long time again) bad of course is that I didn't check IMDb as much because I'm just blogging and the internet gets so slow. (Yea it's done.)
I dunno I can just say it makes me feel different. Like, if I meet a baker, I don't get upset because I'm the candlestickmaker. Like, if it's another Barber in my family is okay, too.
Like, is it a joke or something because of my problems? I'm just waiting for a new computer. The things I don't like about my name are pretty spot on. I don't care that it's a first name because it's more a last name. Two t's isn't particularly to my taking. Two r's is alright in a way. I never really talk about my last name. I became surprised aren't there famous black poets? They talk about it in school if they don't know my last name. I think it's the most popular one because it sounds like a bear and Baird and so forth is named from it. My dad worked at Barnett Bank the whole time we lived in Florida. It shut down and we had to move. Actually, it has merged twice since.

Also, what's so bad about being a general mix with the French? I am just guessing, but it's always been in me to notice someone part English and part Italian. I'm not sure what bothers me, but if it's from someone who's 90 I don't care. I never knew anything about my piano teacher's husband, but I know more about strangers it seems. That indicates that she talked about him, though. I think I'm too young for this. The reason Italians like people who are not only French is because sometimes the French are too snooty. Is it true that people don't care about the Dutch because they don't live in Norway? I just realized this. Then there's mostly German, which is mixed with this. Then there's the Irish stuff. So, in essence, I don't really have problems and nothing of which to be jealous. It does fit my personal preference, though. So, I do take pride in it.

If you're wondering, it's been awhile since I showered. I haven't been out since that one night. My dad agrees, but it seems I didn't make the perfect deal. It seems I should want a separate Blu-Ray, but we don't even have a Blu-Ray. This is ridiculous. I just am not getting a huge television. I don't see why an Apple would be better than a Blu-Ray except that Apple is made for computers. I expect to keep it for awhile. I assume if I get an Apple I need to keep it longer because I'd get a Blu-Ray television separately. The other issue was space. I really don't know. I got upset because of money. I only can ask for things I need. What I need is something so I don't go crazy in my room for however long. I do wanna work and all. No problems there really. I'll easily make the money back or have to use something I really can use that doesn't break I guess. I'm just thinking out loud because I come to conclusions then. I don't like it, but it's only for things that are problems, not solving things, just problems like this, like stuff that's to do with everyday life in a way.

Argh, the computer is so slow.