Friday, April 15, 2011
I wish I was more open
and did swim team. The star a year older asked me every year, but I said I did cross country.
I wish I was more open
and did swim team. The star a year older asked me every year, but I said I did cross country.
I'm not upset about my friend's parents.
But, for some reason, my friends don't answer me and don't talk much. I see them together in real life.
I'm more European than a lot of people.
I don't understand. I have Native American indian. I'm nothing like my dad nor mom.
I'm supposed to grow up to be long, tall, and thin.
My friends aren't, but they can't stop me, though it looks like they already did. I was doing so good growing. I guess I need more food.
So Uptight and Bringing up Bad Memories
That's what my family was to me. I don't want to visit them. I go to Disney with my mom. I can take home some pictures. I spent the last of my money forgetting about Disney souvenirs.
My dad's mom's side
which includes him, thinking of the indian relatives are animals. They are so mean to me. Everyone said how perfect I was. My grandma is trying to make me submissive to her because she can tell about the word nigger thing, but I think there's nothing wrong with it if it's used the right way. My grandma doesn't use hints the right way. We just wanna have some fun.
My Ethnicity
I am wondering if I have more English. My grandma didn't really know so lied to us, said she didn't know. I think her brother must have gotten some information. I'm wondering if one side is really Scottish and English but not Dutch. My mom grew up in Dutch culture, so I have that accent.
It's too hard to think with my parents around sometimes.
My dad doesn't actually realize it isn't nice. He won't stop like molesting me. He always fiddles with his thumb around me trying to make me think of something, like so tacky rubs it back and forth and makes a scraping sound somehow. My parents need to stop. I do something, they get back rather than realize something is not my fault. So many people seem to think I'm not a guilty person. Nothing will be happening and my parents want to fill in time with mean secret messages. I should stay away.
I can do whatever I want.
My parents have a bad habit or my dad does that if something looks wrong they don't want to help but to punish. That's gay.
I was e-mailing these friends and one of them's family e-mail, but they were so rude they didn't respond neither at first that time nor later. Call that stuck up or just messed up? One of the girls went to Facebook and MySpace and "removed me as a friend." She thinks she's so English and cool, but she's so not. She's in the other category.
I was e-mailing these friends and one of them's family e-mail, but they were so rude they didn't respond neither at first that time nor later. Call that stuck up or just messed up? One of the girls went to Facebook and MySpace and "removed me as a friend." She thinks she's so English and cool, but she's so not. She's in the other category.
Guilty?
If you think the word nigger is guilty to use, then I guess I'm guilty, but I was just playing around you know. So, it wasn't really. I wouldn't mind if someone did that to me. Plus, the people seemed to want it. There is nothing wrong with any word unless a word is meant to be that way. I didn't come up to someone and call them that you know. I was treated like a nigger, so I was like fighting for survival and it was only RP. You'll be surprised how nice I am to the unfortunate. I would never use that word on someone like that. When I was hitting my wall, my parents came in at night and were mad, so I said, "Get out of my room, you nigger," to my dad. My parents think it's cute when I get in trouble and it wastes my life for them thinking of how to punish me. I had been treated differently first for hitting the wall. Like, they need a certain amount of time. I'm not 23, anymore. I thought the rule was if you wouldn't mind if someone did that to you. I'm serious they wanted it, as far as that goes. If I used it on my kids there would be a reason. I wouldn't molest them with that word nor with not having it. Fact, everyone uses any word they want. I am not the one who has used it too much, but most people don't need to use it on a baby. Better get it over with. I'm serious that's what happened. There's nothing wrong. I didn't go up to anyone nor someone unfortunate. The terms and conditions were met. People need to stop crapping up that the English language curse words are bad. I have this video of a ball thing with tennis on my YouTube and they each use curse words in real life. I just use it in my blog and if I feel something's important on a message board that allows it. In real life, I don't even like to say the word stupid anymore.
I don't like it when people from tehe U.K. are rude.
I feel selfish to indulge in being European because I foil myself with other cultures. I'm trying to change this part of me to not care. I already don't care, and there could be more reasons. Pretty much a white person doesn't get in trouble for being white, so why can't I? People are so rude to me. It is my love of the material feel of the culture. I try to be both. One thing I decided was to want black hair and white skin because that's right in the middle. Of course I can get a tan. I'm not that fat. I don't know of skinny white people. Their skin is usually pale, but not like flushed.
When people find they don't have anything in common
they realize what they know is from other people, too.
My cousin treats me like an animal.
Her mom also does things, like tries to get across a message even if it wasn't right, used to do this when I was younger, just make up things I did for fun.
No, I didn't masturbate when
I was matured. I felt like it, in Slidell, but I think I did it very little to like never. I think it was like once every few years, but you get the picture. Sometimes I just do it in my sleep, but don't worry not often. I didn't like it at first.
So, I had actually sent my grandma some notes in the mail..
..and she was wanting me to call when I said I didn't know if I would. I just am not comfortable. I'm not supposed to have to talk to anyone just for no reason. There is a reason to talk to her. I just don't have much happening, and she's not a romantic person as far as conversation goes. So, I listen to what she did, which is fun. But, we don't talk about philosophical things.
I'm not a submissive person myself.
I just don't want to be responsible to talk to people. Sometimes all people do is get mad.
I hate when people are connected to their childhood.
They act like a grown-up, but they really are a baby.
Like, I noticed Celine Dion singing sounds like the baby in the family. I noticed flower kids copy accents created by older people. Flower kids meaning flower children, the flowery time, the 60s and 70s.
Like, I noticed Celine Dion singing sounds like the baby in the family. I noticed flower kids copy accents created by older people. Flower kids meaning flower children, the flowery time, the 60s and 70s.
Yea I was thinking friends.
I don't mean anyone in particular because I can't. I'd get in trouble. I'm upset because it's getting annoying.
My Extended Family Is Threatening
They treat me like I'm stupid. You may think I don't actually have beef with the bulk of my family, but we'll just say the closer the hotter.
Hard of Hearing
My left ear rings all the time and feels a little plugged. My right one feels cushioned. I made myself go to my cousin's wedding and paid a lot of money for it. I have to wait a month for a little money. This lady whistled loudly in my ear. Her mom was there because she was a neighbor. I don't know why the hairdresser attends the wedding of a 19-year-old. I went to MGM, and this lady kept talking loudly on the right for the Indiana Jones show, which has some stunts and had some loud music. I should have covered my ear.
For once I didn't even exercise today.
I was tired and was gonna go to the gym with my dad. I did stay up late.
I like my extended family but I want to say something.
They treat me like a baby, any member. They think they can make me more disciplined, but that's my stereotype and not theirs. I grew up mostly told by sane people I was very perfect. I can't believe some of the things people want to do with me. I'm supposed to call my Grandma again in a day or so. Our connection was cut when I said I was wondering when to call. I don't like that my family thinks it's funny to call at 4 when I have the rest of my day to enjoy. Like I said on IMDb, people just don't know what I need. They just see everyone else working and forget I was recommended to take time off from school at 16 and 20.
Kinda thankful.
Fuck the piano. I had a baby one and said I wanted to be a singer when we had to pick something when I was 7. Michael Jackson actually inspired me singing "Free Willy." Before that my first grade class studied whales, so it came out then. We were on TV for it, but it's in Katrina.
How would I get into theater or musical theater without flexibility? I couldn't be just a dancer. Britney Spears didn't do ballet. I did gymnastics from 1-9.
How would I get into theater or musical theater without flexibility? I couldn't be just a dancer. Britney Spears didn't do ballet. I did gymnastics from 1-9.
I hate being indian.
People really are racist. How can I separate living from being a crazy animal? Like, things like brown hair, how do I know if that's really physical as a European? I guess the Chinese-Indonesian isn't irritating.
Songs Like "Dreams"
http://www.amazon.com/Dreams/dp/B000WOXPZ6/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1302760126&sr=1-2-spell
To me it sounds much less than the culture I grew up with at the time was. You might think it's pretty remodeled, but to me it's the opposite statement. :|
To me it sounds much less than the culture I grew up with at the time was. You might think it's pretty remodeled, but to me it's the opposite statement. :|
That was funny.
We only saw Annie once, but they had casts with 2 different main characters. I don't know why or if I'm stupid, but we didn't see the one someone I knew was in. I think the other girl was from somewhere else. They seem to have a lot of the arts in other areas of the area.
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